I recently moved my files from a laptop to a beautiful new desktop Macintosh. As I was going through some of the old documents I found the following, which I typed during what seems to have been an automatic writing session. I have foggy memories of doing it, though it was just this past July.
Here's why I remember sitting down to do this: Many years ago (like, 20) I got married to a guy I'd been living with. I was not very mature in many ways, and I remember being insanely jealous if his college ex-girlfriend, with whom he'd remained friends. This lady was tall, slender, beautiful, interesting, perfect in every way... or so it seemed to me at the time. I was a little obsessed with her and with how far short I fell compared to her. She spoke french fluently and had parents living in Switzerland. How cool is that? I'd taken french for years in school but couldn't speak a word of it, I'd never been anywhere, and I was short and chubby (or so it seemed to me at the time).
Well, my husband and I divorced after just a few short years of marriage, for reasons that I'm sure had to do with my immaturity, but we managed to stay on friendly terms. Perhaps 2 or 3 years ago he told me that his ex-girlfriend was suffering from an advanced stage of uterine or cervical cancer and was undergoing some extreme treatments. In the intervening years I did manage to grow a lot, so hearing her name wasn't quite so threatening anymore; I wouldn't have thought it possible 20 years ago, but now my heart went out to her. That was the last I heard about it because my ex and I communicate very infrequently these days.
So one day last March or April, I had a dream about this woman, who I'll call H. I was troubled because I felt she had passed away and troubled by my reaction to it because of all the power I'd given her when I was an insecure young woman. I googled her, but couldn't find any information about her; no email, address, website, Facebook page... nothing. I really felt her around me. It's a very strange feeling when someone your own ages passes away, something about it just feels so close to home. I asked her if she had something to say to me and sat down at my keyboard.
Here's what I typed out that July day in 2009, unedited except for correcting the obvious typos that happened at the time. I've also added punctuation to make sense of what originally came out in one long sentence:
"I was pregnant and now I’m pregnant again. I'm holding something that doesn’t belong to me. I took on something that somebody gave me, an idea about my body and I believed it. Don’t believe it. I played guitar, I carried xmas trees. I was strong. Now I’m like a dragonfly, and you can come on my back into amazing places. For me it’s like a humming bird, things move so fast and you have to stop time to see me. You have to stop time to heal. Sit in meditation; it helps. Watch your breasts. What is beautiful in the beginning becomes exceedingly unattractive later. Time is nothing and everything. I have a mouth to speak. No I wasn’t afraid. I was at the funeral home, I stood by my head in the casket and watched the people. I am everywhere now. Your eyes are blind and cannot see. Then you have to take off the lenses just slide them down your nose. Do this gesture and look for what you cannot see. Breathe on your tongue, out like kundalini yoga. Breathe. My right leg was stuck. I went headfirst to the other way. It was like a dive into cool water, I felt it all around me and when I emerged on the other side I spread out like vapor. Yoga. For a time I will help you. But this isn’t your business here. I remember being in the womb of my mother, I remember tickling her on the inside. I was upside down. There are many of us, like a starfish if you divide it, it only multiplies and doesn’t die. We exist in many places at once. We are so much bigger. I don’t have all the answers, I’m still learning. Sometimes I am alone, but it feels nice and normal. My mother has beads or a necklace she wore over a white shirt, red beads like prayer beads. They said the wig on my body was awful. I laughed with them. Write with a pen on paper. And I will sign it. I am with two others, on either side. My mother and father are both here with me."
There are a couple of sentences I couldn't decipher at the beginning, when I was asking for H to help me. I remember asking her if she had something to say and if she would help me get it said. Some of the first sentences were kind of gibberish, like:
"Just go ahead. Is it possible you are waiting for something that is already here?"
Wonder why I immediately forgot that session and rediscovered it now. What's interesting is that H was right about my breasts. I had an abnormal mammogram on my left breast in October, when back for another, went back for ultrasound, and ultimately had a needle biopsy in November. Everything was clear, thank God.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
On January 22 I began the process of meditation with intention according to the steps I outlined last time.
I was doing my regular meditation first, which includes my visualization, prayer, gratitude, etc. -- but intending to finish with the automatic writing or channelling part towards the end. I was feeling so delicious and relaxed as I sat on my couch with the pen resting on the open pad in my lap, that I think I might have been drifting off... when it sounded like the pen dropped onto the paper. Which it couldn't have done because it was already resting on the paper.
I picked up the pen, held it over the paper and said, "okay, if you want me to start now I will." I started yawning and started feeling that funny jerking feeling again, and then the words flashed into my mind as I started writing:
"Annemarie"
then:
"tell my brothers"
and then something else which I can't decipher... something like "...thousands like me"
I still think I'm supposed to be having a different type of experience. My understanding of trance mediumship, sometimes called trance channelling or automatic writing if it involves pen and paper, is that the medium is unaware of what words are coming in and then being expressed, either verbally or through the pen.
The last two times I did this I felt the words pop into my mind first, or simultaneously with the writing. Are the guides just warming me up?
One of my teachers told me about a time he went to a seance, and the medium did a brief meditation at the beginning, and then held them all spellbound as he talked about the spirit world. When he was done, he suddenly started apologizing to all the sitters present because he'd fallen asleep instead of conducting their seance. And the sitters were flabbergasted that he would even say such a thing since he'd been talking to them for over an hour.
Those tales of automatic writers using both hands...
Something tells me I'm not quite there yet. I'm an impatient learner though!
Since that session I've done several readings and Message Circles, and while I'm certain the ease of conducting those has greatly increased, it's still my intention to trance-channel healing when I'm doing healing work; to trance-channel spirit messages when I'm conducting a seance, and to trance-channel messages through automatic writing when I'm alone and/or blogging.
Got that guides?
Yesterday I sat again to practice, in the same position with the pen on the pad in my lap. During the meditation I felt as if something lightly pushed my hand across the pad to pick up the pen. After that I was very aware of holding the pen, and just focused on praying myself out of the way.
Here's what I wrote:
"I don't want to be among..."
then:
"Let me know..."
then something also illegible. Though I didn't really see or become aware of the words till I was finished writing each meaningless phrase, I felt more guidance this time. Like I was allowed to listen in on a couple of snatches of conversation.
For the past couple of days I've been yawning a lot, which someone told me a long time ago is the presence of energy-shifting spirits. Maybe they're widening my mouth so they can squeeze in and talk for me.
My friend also said I'd been whistling all day, the same tune. I wasn't aware of it, but he noticed it because he said I never whistle. Do I? I have no idea...
Today, 1/26/2010 I tried again around 2PM. Very wonderful deep trance but when I asked my guides to give me a sign, some sort of signal that I could FEEL, so that I would know the process was about to begin, the phone rang. I'd forgotten to silence it.
And that was that.
I was doing my regular meditation first, which includes my visualization, prayer, gratitude, etc. -- but intending to finish with the automatic writing or channelling part towards the end. I was feeling so delicious and relaxed as I sat on my couch with the pen resting on the open pad in my lap, that I think I might have been drifting off... when it sounded like the pen dropped onto the paper. Which it couldn't have done because it was already resting on the paper.
I picked up the pen, held it over the paper and said, "okay, if you want me to start now I will." I started yawning and started feeling that funny jerking feeling again, and then the words flashed into my mind as I started writing:
"Annemarie"
then:
"tell my brothers"
and then something else which I can't decipher... something like "...thousands like me"
I still think I'm supposed to be having a different type of experience. My understanding of trance mediumship, sometimes called trance channelling or automatic writing if it involves pen and paper, is that the medium is unaware of what words are coming in and then being expressed, either verbally or through the pen.
The last two times I did this I felt the words pop into my mind first, or simultaneously with the writing. Are the guides just warming me up?
One of my teachers told me about a time he went to a seance, and the medium did a brief meditation at the beginning, and then held them all spellbound as he talked about the spirit world. When he was done, he suddenly started apologizing to all the sitters present because he'd fallen asleep instead of conducting their seance. And the sitters were flabbergasted that he would even say such a thing since he'd been talking to them for over an hour.
Those tales of automatic writers using both hands...
Something tells me I'm not quite there yet. I'm an impatient learner though!
Since that session I've done several readings and Message Circles, and while I'm certain the ease of conducting those has greatly increased, it's still my intention to trance-channel healing when I'm doing healing work; to trance-channel spirit messages when I'm conducting a seance, and to trance-channel messages through automatic writing when I'm alone and/or blogging.
Got that guides?
Yesterday I sat again to practice, in the same position with the pen on the pad in my lap. During the meditation I felt as if something lightly pushed my hand across the pad to pick up the pen. After that I was very aware of holding the pen, and just focused on praying myself out of the way.
Here's what I wrote:
"I don't want to be among..."
then:
"Let me know..."
then something also illegible. Though I didn't really see or become aware of the words till I was finished writing each meaningless phrase, I felt more guidance this time. Like I was allowed to listen in on a couple of snatches of conversation.
For the past couple of days I've been yawning a lot, which someone told me a long time ago is the presence of energy-shifting spirits. Maybe they're widening my mouth so they can squeeze in and talk for me.
My friend also said I'd been whistling all day, the same tune. I wasn't aware of it, but he noticed it because he said I never whistle. Do I? I have no idea...
Today, 1/26/2010 I tried again around 2PM. Very wonderful deep trance but when I asked my guides to give me a sign, some sort of signal that I could FEEL, so that I would know the process was about to begin, the phone rang. I'd forgotten to silence it.
And that was that.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
How I Plan To Begin
Because I believe psychic ability is a skill and not a gift, I'm going to chronicle the development of a new psychic tool so everyone can follow along with what I'm trying that's working, not working, etc.
I've enjoyed a several hours of inspired writing. My whole Live & Learn Guides series I believe was crafted through inspired writing. This differs from automatic writing in that I'm aware of what's coming THROUGH my mind and onto the paper (in this case, computer screen). Automatic writing happens when the person, or channel, absents herself from the process and a spirit, guide, Master or Teacher, actually moves the hand. Usually the channel has "blanked out," or felt like s/he fell asleep or into a deep trance, and has no awareness of what was written until the session is over. I've read accounts of automatic writing where one hand is writing something, the other hand writing something entirely different, and the person having a conversation with someone at the same time.
Channelling can be learned, and that's my goal and what I promise to chronicle as I develop this skill. I'm already a practicing psychic/medium, which skill was learned and developed through intention and practice.
So every morning in my meditation now I'm going to set the intention and sit with a pen and pad and see what happens. Eventually my goal is to sit down at this blog and channel whatever spirit has to offer.
Here's my process so far:
Step 1: Get into my meditation place and begin the mental and physical relaxation process
Step 2: Set the intention. I say, "Guides, Spirits, Angels, Ancestors, Spirit People, I desire to channel your guidance. Show me how to do that. Give me a feeling that I will recognize that is associated with your presence and the onset of automatic writing. Let me know with some physical sensation that the process is beginning."
Step 3: Wait, with the pen in my dominant hand, with the tip resting on the paper. Try, try, try to get out of the way. I do this with a visualization of making room in my arm for a good and higher power to slip in and start to move.
Step 4: When my arm started to move this morning, I wasn't sure if I was making it up, feeling anything special, doing inspired writing or what. But as I did when I developed my psychic abilities -- I just plowed ahead. No one has to see it (except you guys). I'm not telling anyone what I'm doing (except you guys). Jeez, they'd think I'm crazy. I think I'm crazy. But I'm doing it anyway, and here's what happened...
I felt like my arm was spasming a little bit, jerking in a small way. I fought the urge to open my eyes. I felt words coming into my mind, popping in (even though my conscious mind was saying "you're not doing it right! You're supposed to feel tingling or numbness or something first!"). So decided to let the jerking happen and let what was in my mind spasm onto the paper. What follows is what I wrote, and what questions I asked:
What I found myself writing: "My name is Jeremiah"
"I died in a coffin box."
I asked in my head, What do you mean? Were you buried alive?
What I found myself writing: "I was laid in a coffin."
I felt in my mind that this meant as he was dying he was moved into his coffin. Then I had the thought of the year, and, honest to God, before I even HAD the thought completed --
I found myself writing: "1787. 26 years old."
Then again: "Havermeier."
I asked in my mind, are you a good spirit?
What I found myself writing: "All of us are good."
I started to form a new thought about his profession and before it was completed --
I found myself writing: "Doctor."
I started to form the question, will you help me? and
I found myself writing: Yes, I'll help you."
Then I abruptly opened my eyes and the session, or meditation, or whatever it was, was over. I quickly looked at what I'd scrawled which was just barely legible, and re-wrote it so I could share it here.
Today I meditated much later than I usually do. I'd done a healing session on a friend, and while doing it I became aware of a lot of spirit healers around us -- whether they were her guides or mine I don't know. There was an Incan/Mayan/Aztec-looking male (apologies to those distinct and amazing cultures: I couldn't tell which was his origin) who seemed to be an alchemist. There was a doctor with a syringe. There was another person looking in a microscope... Lots of traditional healing modalities represented by the spirit people. My friend enjoyed her session and was feeling very much better after she left.
It was after this session that I found time to meditate and to begin practicing my new skill. I asked to be taught, I declared my desire to learn (for God's glory, not mine) and tried my best to get out of the way. So I was interested to hear from a young departed Doctor.
Can't wait till tomorrow to practice again!!
I've enjoyed a several hours of inspired writing. My whole Live & Learn Guides series I believe was crafted through inspired writing. This differs from automatic writing in that I'm aware of what's coming THROUGH my mind and onto the paper (in this case, computer screen). Automatic writing happens when the person, or channel, absents herself from the process and a spirit, guide, Master or Teacher, actually moves the hand. Usually the channel has "blanked out," or felt like s/he fell asleep or into a deep trance, and has no awareness of what was written until the session is over. I've read accounts of automatic writing where one hand is writing something, the other hand writing something entirely different, and the person having a conversation with someone at the same time.
Channelling can be learned, and that's my goal and what I promise to chronicle as I develop this skill. I'm already a practicing psychic/medium, which skill was learned and developed through intention and practice.
So every morning in my meditation now I'm going to set the intention and sit with a pen and pad and see what happens. Eventually my goal is to sit down at this blog and channel whatever spirit has to offer.
Here's my process so far:
Step 1: Get into my meditation place and begin the mental and physical relaxation process
Step 2: Set the intention. I say, "Guides, Spirits, Angels, Ancestors, Spirit People, I desire to channel your guidance. Show me how to do that. Give me a feeling that I will recognize that is associated with your presence and the onset of automatic writing. Let me know with some physical sensation that the process is beginning."
Step 3: Wait, with the pen in my dominant hand, with the tip resting on the paper. Try, try, try to get out of the way. I do this with a visualization of making room in my arm for a good and higher power to slip in and start to move.
Step 4: When my arm started to move this morning, I wasn't sure if I was making it up, feeling anything special, doing inspired writing or what. But as I did when I developed my psychic abilities -- I just plowed ahead. No one has to see it (except you guys). I'm not telling anyone what I'm doing (except you guys). Jeez, they'd think I'm crazy. I think I'm crazy. But I'm doing it anyway, and here's what happened...
I felt like my arm was spasming a little bit, jerking in a small way. I fought the urge to open my eyes. I felt words coming into my mind, popping in (even though my conscious mind was saying "you're not doing it right! You're supposed to feel tingling or numbness or something first!"). So decided to let the jerking happen and let what was in my mind spasm onto the paper. What follows is what I wrote, and what questions I asked:
What I found myself writing: "My name is Jeremiah"
"I died in a coffin box."
I asked in my head, What do you mean? Were you buried alive?
What I found myself writing: "I was laid in a coffin."
I felt in my mind that this meant as he was dying he was moved into his coffin. Then I had the thought of the year, and, honest to God, before I even HAD the thought completed --
I found myself writing: "1787. 26 years old."
Then again: "Havermeier."
I asked in my mind, are you a good spirit?
What I found myself writing: "All of us are good."
I started to form a new thought about his profession and before it was completed --
I found myself writing: "Doctor."
I started to form the question, will you help me? and
I found myself writing: Yes, I'll help you."
Then I abruptly opened my eyes and the session, or meditation, or whatever it was, was over. I quickly looked at what I'd scrawled which was just barely legible, and re-wrote it so I could share it here.
Today I meditated much later than I usually do. I'd done a healing session on a friend, and while doing it I became aware of a lot of spirit healers around us -- whether they were her guides or mine I don't know. There was an Incan/Mayan/Aztec-looking male (apologies to those distinct and amazing cultures: I couldn't tell which was his origin) who seemed to be an alchemist. There was a doctor with a syringe. There was another person looking in a microscope... Lots of traditional healing modalities represented by the spirit people. My friend enjoyed her session and was feeling very much better after she left.
It was after this session that I found time to meditate and to begin practicing my new skill. I asked to be taught, I declared my desire to learn (for God's glory, not mine) and tried my best to get out of the way. So I was interested to hear from a young departed Doctor.
Can't wait till tomorrow to practice again!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Spirits Communicate About Health Solutions
I purposely avoid learning about anatomy and illnesses, so that if a spirit person communicates or if I get a psychic impression about someone's health I don't extrapolate. For instance, let's say I knew something medical about diabetes, its cause, treatment and cure. Then in a reading, I get the feeling "diabetes," I might be naturally inclined to pay attention to my conscious mind, which would very helpfully be offering up opinions about the cause, treatment and cure. So while it's impossible to completely avoid knowing things about illnesses, I don't actively seek out information.
Yesterday a wonderful young couple and their twin 5-year-old girls came in for a reading. The girls suffered from something I'll call Illness A; one girl had gotten it at 3 years old and it had completely taken over her body. The other twin had gotten it earlier, but was manifesting a less severe case of it.
I know nothing at all about Illness A, except I've heard the word and know what it's primary symptom is.
The couple asked about their daughters' future (Illness A is not terminal by the way), did I see it reversing, and how that might happen. They asked a couple of other questions not related to their daughters, and those impressions came to me first. When I finally got to what was their first question, about their daughters' illness, I felt the presence of a female come stand next to the wife. This spirit was plump, apple-cheeked, held a rolling pin, had an "A" name, and showed me a stroke. When I conveyed all of this information, the wife identified the spirit as her brother-in-law's mother. Really?
I asked the spirit why she had come (when more closely-related spirits might have come through). The spirit immediately drew my attention to what we women modestly call "down there," and pointed to the wife. I told the wife what I was getting, and said, "I don't think she's indicating her own reproductive or sexual organs, but yours. I don't mean to be personal, but are you having or have you had difficulty in this area?" The wife said she had -- she hadn't menstruated for 4 years -- but that she had resolved that health issue and now everything was fine.
I felt like the spirit was clubbing me over the head with her rolling pin when the wife was saying she had "resolved that ehalth issue." So I asked, "what did you do to correct this health issue?" and she answered that she had taken an ayurvedic approach. More head clubbing by the spirit.
I asked her, "have you tried an ayurvedic approach with your daughters?" Apparently some time ago they HAD tried, but didn't stick with it because both husband and wife knew that the practitioner wasn't the right one for them. I knew this spirit had come through particularly because she could get the wife to talk about resolving another health issue, and the spirit knew that this approach would also help the little girls.
Obviously we have to wait and see, but I believe this spirit came in direct response to my question -- to the parents' question -- about the best way to resolve Illness A.
Spirit people haven't done things like that for me before; in the past I've used psychic impressions only to predict how an illness will play out. It was a really great gift from the spirit world!
I gave each of the little girls a hug before they left, and I felt spirit woman all around them. I believe she'll help in every way she can!
Yesterday a wonderful young couple and their twin 5-year-old girls came in for a reading. The girls suffered from something I'll call Illness A; one girl had gotten it at 3 years old and it had completely taken over her body. The other twin had gotten it earlier, but was manifesting a less severe case of it.
I know nothing at all about Illness A, except I've heard the word and know what it's primary symptom is.
The couple asked about their daughters' future (Illness A is not terminal by the way), did I see it reversing, and how that might happen. They asked a couple of other questions not related to their daughters, and those impressions came to me first. When I finally got to what was their first question, about their daughters' illness, I felt the presence of a female come stand next to the wife. This spirit was plump, apple-cheeked, held a rolling pin, had an "A" name, and showed me a stroke. When I conveyed all of this information, the wife identified the spirit as her brother-in-law's mother. Really?
I asked the spirit why she had come (when more closely-related spirits might have come through). The spirit immediately drew my attention to what we women modestly call "down there," and pointed to the wife. I told the wife what I was getting, and said, "I don't think she's indicating her own reproductive or sexual organs, but yours. I don't mean to be personal, but are you having or have you had difficulty in this area?" The wife said she had -- she hadn't menstruated for 4 years -- but that she had resolved that health issue and now everything was fine.
I felt like the spirit was clubbing me over the head with her rolling pin when the wife was saying she had "resolved that ehalth issue." So I asked, "what did you do to correct this health issue?" and she answered that she had taken an ayurvedic approach. More head clubbing by the spirit.
I asked her, "have you tried an ayurvedic approach with your daughters?" Apparently some time ago they HAD tried, but didn't stick with it because both husband and wife knew that the practitioner wasn't the right one for them. I knew this spirit had come through particularly because she could get the wife to talk about resolving another health issue, and the spirit knew that this approach would also help the little girls.
Obviously we have to wait and see, but I believe this spirit came in direct response to my question -- to the parents' question -- about the best way to resolve Illness A.
Spirit people haven't done things like that for me before; in the past I've used psychic impressions only to predict how an illness will play out. It was a really great gift from the spirit world!
I gave each of the little girls a hug before they left, and I felt spirit woman all around them. I believe she'll help in every way she can!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Here's An Idea!
Last Thursday night I conducted a Message Circle at a local healing arts center. There were 10 women in attendance, none of whom were related to each other. When family members attend together, even just two, they can pull in a lot more spirit communication than people who come with a friend or who come alone. But we had no related people in this Circle so I expected a pretty even distribution of spirit activity.
There are other patterns I've noticed in Circles, besides what happens when family members attend. Sometimes one person can be what I call the "chimney," or can sit in what I call the "chimney." In my home, the "chimney" is one particular seat on the couch. Whoever sits there gets many spirit people coming through, not only for themselves, but many spirits who come in for other people show up in that spot. For instance, on this particular couch cushion a sitter in my Circle will generally get many more details from their spirit people, or the spirit person will hang around a long time making jokes, or will keep coming back for more attention even after they've been acknowledged. The person sitting there may also get more variety of spirit people than the others in attendance. Because everyone pays the same price, I endeavor to give everyone equal time, but whoever is in the chimney gets the richest detail and most visits.
I never tell people about this spot at the beginning of the Circle, because I believe people sit where they choose for a reason, and who am I to redirect them or influence their experience?
I've noticed that the chimney spot may also be the place where everyone's spirit people come through. I usually "give" a spirit to a person because I'm pulled in a certain direction when I become aware of a specific spirit. I may be talking to one person on one side of the Circle when I'm interrupted and feel like I need to talk to someone on the other side. So the spirit people generally "stand" in front of who they are here for. But when the chimney is particular strong, many of the spirit people will appear in front of the chimney seat or chimney person, and then I have to find who they really belong to. It's important to remember if you're attending a Circle to listen carefully, even if the medium doesn't seem to be directing a spirit to you. There may be a chimney in the room. Or YOU may be the chimney, so while you may know who the medium is describing, don't be too quick with the "No" response and let it develop perhaps for another person.
So last Thursday night during my Circle at Opal Moon (www.opalmoon.net, by the way), I felt a chimney forming opposite me in the Circle, and the chimney was connected with the person, not the seat. It seemed like everyone I was describing, even while I was directing my comments to other people, actually belonged to one woman named MaryJean. It was getting impossible to read someone else!
Finally, and at times it felt like slogging through molasses, I finished reading everyone. It took 2 hours to give a spirit message to everyone in the Circle, which is just way too long. And I don't think the last person I read was at all satisfied. But that's a topic for another blog.
Here is the fascinating thing I learned at last Thursday's Circle. While we were closing, and I was "consoling" the last person I read who was feeling a little gipped I think, because she didn't get as many real "A Ha!" details as everyone else did, Mary Jean the Chimney said... "I almost didn't come tonight."
I had a brief moment of thinking, "And if you hadn't, this lady here would be a lot happier!" But Mary Jean continued on. She said she had been meditating every day, wanting to hear from 4 or 5 people in a Circle. She hadn't committed to coming to our Circle till the last minute. Indeed, I'd been told to expect 9 sitters, and there were 10 when I arrived.
Mary Jean said, "I had been asking and asking for my people to come through to me, somehow. Every day in meditation I'd been reaching out to them and asking for them to make themselves known to me. This morning I heard about this Message Circle, I signed up, and I said Grandma (and others), I'm going to this seance tonight, and if it's REALLY YOU, please show me."
Every single one of her people came through, with details that convinced Mary Jean her spirit people heard and answered her. She convinced me too.
Now, do I tell people to meditate and ask for an "appearance" by their spirit people? And what if the spirit people are busy and don't show? I try to manage peoples' expectations regarding Message Circles so that they keep an open mind. In fact, one young woman at Thursday's Circle heard from no one she expected to, though there was a young 15-year-old girl who kept coming through for her. Fortunately she was open to hearing from anyone, and by the end of the Circle she could identify this girl, though she'd died probably 20 years ago and was only a schoolmate. She sent me an email the next day really confirming the appearance of this spirit girl. If you come to a Circle wanting only to hear from Dad, and Dad and I don't connect, the disappointment can disrupt acknowledgement of a great uncle, childhood friend, or co-worker who maybe was "less important."
For now, I'll recommend this: if you know you want to hear from someone -- ASK them! Seems like if you ask, they are more likely to appear. I know that if you come prepared to "test" the medium (as one in my Circle did last Thursday night, right down to the crossed arms and legs and body position turned away from the Circle), you're not going to enjoy yourself as much, and the medium is going to have a hard time reading for you. Ask, whether you're going to a Circle or not. And when they show up, be confident that it isn't coincidence -- you're being answered.
The spirit people keep teaching me, and I feel like I'm in school for the long haul. Fortunately for me, I love being a student!
There are other patterns I've noticed in Circles, besides what happens when family members attend. Sometimes one person can be what I call the "chimney," or can sit in what I call the "chimney." In my home, the "chimney" is one particular seat on the couch. Whoever sits there gets many spirit people coming through, not only for themselves, but many spirits who come in for other people show up in that spot. For instance, on this particular couch cushion a sitter in my Circle will generally get many more details from their spirit people, or the spirit person will hang around a long time making jokes, or will keep coming back for more attention even after they've been acknowledged. The person sitting there may also get more variety of spirit people than the others in attendance. Because everyone pays the same price, I endeavor to give everyone equal time, but whoever is in the chimney gets the richest detail and most visits.
I never tell people about this spot at the beginning of the Circle, because I believe people sit where they choose for a reason, and who am I to redirect them or influence their experience?
I've noticed that the chimney spot may also be the place where everyone's spirit people come through. I usually "give" a spirit to a person because I'm pulled in a certain direction when I become aware of a specific spirit. I may be talking to one person on one side of the Circle when I'm interrupted and feel like I need to talk to someone on the other side. So the spirit people generally "stand" in front of who they are here for. But when the chimney is particular strong, many of the spirit people will appear in front of the chimney seat or chimney person, and then I have to find who they really belong to. It's important to remember if you're attending a Circle to listen carefully, even if the medium doesn't seem to be directing a spirit to you. There may be a chimney in the room. Or YOU may be the chimney, so while you may know who the medium is describing, don't be too quick with the "No" response and let it develop perhaps for another person.
So last Thursday night during my Circle at Opal Moon (www.opalmoon.net, by the way), I felt a chimney forming opposite me in the Circle, and the chimney was connected with the person, not the seat. It seemed like everyone I was describing, even while I was directing my comments to other people, actually belonged to one woman named MaryJean. It was getting impossible to read someone else!
Finally, and at times it felt like slogging through molasses, I finished reading everyone. It took 2 hours to give a spirit message to everyone in the Circle, which is just way too long. And I don't think the last person I read was at all satisfied. But that's a topic for another blog.
Here is the fascinating thing I learned at last Thursday's Circle. While we were closing, and I was "consoling" the last person I read who was feeling a little gipped I think, because she didn't get as many real "A Ha!" details as everyone else did, Mary Jean the Chimney said... "I almost didn't come tonight."
I had a brief moment of thinking, "And if you hadn't, this lady here would be a lot happier!" But Mary Jean continued on. She said she had been meditating every day, wanting to hear from 4 or 5 people in a Circle. She hadn't committed to coming to our Circle till the last minute. Indeed, I'd been told to expect 9 sitters, and there were 10 when I arrived.
Mary Jean said, "I had been asking and asking for my people to come through to me, somehow. Every day in meditation I'd been reaching out to them and asking for them to make themselves known to me. This morning I heard about this Message Circle, I signed up, and I said Grandma (and others), I'm going to this seance tonight, and if it's REALLY YOU, please show me."
Every single one of her people came through, with details that convinced Mary Jean her spirit people heard and answered her. She convinced me too.
Now, do I tell people to meditate and ask for an "appearance" by their spirit people? And what if the spirit people are busy and don't show? I try to manage peoples' expectations regarding Message Circles so that they keep an open mind. In fact, one young woman at Thursday's Circle heard from no one she expected to, though there was a young 15-year-old girl who kept coming through for her. Fortunately she was open to hearing from anyone, and by the end of the Circle she could identify this girl, though she'd died probably 20 years ago and was only a schoolmate. She sent me an email the next day really confirming the appearance of this spirit girl. If you come to a Circle wanting only to hear from Dad, and Dad and I don't connect, the disappointment can disrupt acknowledgement of a great uncle, childhood friend, or co-worker who maybe was "less important."
For now, I'll recommend this: if you know you want to hear from someone -- ASK them! Seems like if you ask, they are more likely to appear. I know that if you come prepared to "test" the medium (as one in my Circle did last Thursday night, right down to the crossed arms and legs and body position turned away from the Circle), you're not going to enjoy yourself as much, and the medium is going to have a hard time reading for you. Ask, whether you're going to a Circle or not. And when they show up, be confident that it isn't coincidence -- you're being answered.
The spirit people keep teaching me, and I feel like I'm in school for the long haul. Fortunately for me, I love being a student!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Message Circles
I had a couple of Message Circles the week before the end of the year. What a blast!
My home is an old summer cabin, with a porch on the front that was enclosed some time in the 1950's. I put replacement windows in it, insulated it, and now I can use it as my office. But I've noticed that when I give Message Circles in my home, it's the place where all the spirit people wait their turn to come in and be described.
The morning of a Circle I feel the energy on the porch begin to spike up. When I walk out here my ears hum a little, I feel an excited, butterflies-like feeling in my stomach and the air feels like invisible popcorn. There have been times when, because of bad weather or change in clients' plans, a Circle is cancelled. I always know when they're going to cancel because all of a sudden the porch will go back to feeling regular when I'm out here, like any other room in the house.
I just finished doing a reading for a woman who was unsure whether she wanted to hear from people in spirit. She came just for intuitive consultation on a business move, a relocation, and the futures of her two sons. But I started to feel that "popcorn" feeling about 1/4 of the way in, which I ignored and silently told the spirit to please step back. But that female spirit wouldn't leave me alone, kept bugging me, and finally I just had to ask my client, "may I tell you about someone I feel around me?"
She gave me a really hesitant kind of look, so I just charged ahead without giving her a chance to say "No."
"She's showing me cancer that moves from the stomach to the liver, and she shows me holding a necklace out to you that looks like an American Indian piece: turquoise and silver and kind of big and chunky. This is a necklace that she gave to you, that was hers. She shows me her right ear, and indicates hearing trouble here."
My client starting crying and I said, "this is your mother."
Our "just psychic" reading turned around at that point with her acknowledgement of her mother. Then came her aunt, and her Dad. They all had something really important to say to her, which helped her client feel really connected.
The spirit people draw attention to themselves or come in, in a couple of different ways for me. If there are several, I'll get that feeling of little air "pops" around my skin. Sometimes I get a picture if my eyes happen to be closed. Usually I just feel like someone has planted themselves right in front of me, interrupted me almost, and I just start to get ideas about who they are, what they passed from, male or female, etc. I'm not often clairaudient, so I don't usually hear names. I will get an initial, or if it's a name that has a noun associated with it (Rose, April, etc), I'll get a picture of that.
When I'm conducting a Message Circle, even more so than a one-on-one reading, I totally lose track of time. I feel like I myself am somehow suspended in the spirit world. And there is so much joy there! Even if the spirits passed tragically, they come through joking or being very light-hearted about something. Everyone in the Circle ends up laughing, and facilitating that laughter feels so wonderful for me.
I could do Message Circles every day for the rest of my life and never grow tired of it. It doesn't tire me out at all -- I almost feel like I'm one of the eternal spirit people -- oh, wait... I AM one of the eternal spirit people! I have so much energy when they're over, it takes me a couple of hours to settle down enough to go to sleep. Sometimes when I'm asleep they come into my dreams to finish their thoughts, or I am aware of them moving around the porch.
What a great job!
My home is an old summer cabin, with a porch on the front that was enclosed some time in the 1950's. I put replacement windows in it, insulated it, and now I can use it as my office. But I've noticed that when I give Message Circles in my home, it's the place where all the spirit people wait their turn to come in and be described.
The morning of a Circle I feel the energy on the porch begin to spike up. When I walk out here my ears hum a little, I feel an excited, butterflies-like feeling in my stomach and the air feels like invisible popcorn. There have been times when, because of bad weather or change in clients' plans, a Circle is cancelled. I always know when they're going to cancel because all of a sudden the porch will go back to feeling regular when I'm out here, like any other room in the house.
I just finished doing a reading for a woman who was unsure whether she wanted to hear from people in spirit. She came just for intuitive consultation on a business move, a relocation, and the futures of her two sons. But I started to feel that "popcorn" feeling about 1/4 of the way in, which I ignored and silently told the spirit to please step back. But that female spirit wouldn't leave me alone, kept bugging me, and finally I just had to ask my client, "may I tell you about someone I feel around me?"
She gave me a really hesitant kind of look, so I just charged ahead without giving her a chance to say "No."
"She's showing me cancer that moves from the stomach to the liver, and she shows me holding a necklace out to you that looks like an American Indian piece: turquoise and silver and kind of big and chunky. This is a necklace that she gave to you, that was hers. She shows me her right ear, and indicates hearing trouble here."
My client starting crying and I said, "this is your mother."
Our "just psychic" reading turned around at that point with her acknowledgement of her mother. Then came her aunt, and her Dad. They all had something really important to say to her, which helped her client feel really connected.
The spirit people draw attention to themselves or come in, in a couple of different ways for me. If there are several, I'll get that feeling of little air "pops" around my skin. Sometimes I get a picture if my eyes happen to be closed. Usually I just feel like someone has planted themselves right in front of me, interrupted me almost, and I just start to get ideas about who they are, what they passed from, male or female, etc. I'm not often clairaudient, so I don't usually hear names. I will get an initial, or if it's a name that has a noun associated with it (Rose, April, etc), I'll get a picture of that.
When I'm conducting a Message Circle, even more so than a one-on-one reading, I totally lose track of time. I feel like I myself am somehow suspended in the spirit world. And there is so much joy there! Even if the spirits passed tragically, they come through joking or being very light-hearted about something. Everyone in the Circle ends up laughing, and facilitating that laughter feels so wonderful for me.
I could do Message Circles every day for the rest of my life and never grow tired of it. It doesn't tire me out at all -- I almost feel like I'm one of the eternal spirit people -- oh, wait... I AM one of the eternal spirit people! I have so much energy when they're over, it takes me a couple of hours to settle down enough to go to sleep. Sometimes when I'm asleep they come into my dreams to finish their thoughts, or I am aware of them moving around the porch.
What a great job!
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